This weight loss is bigger than me. I weighed my self today & am still down the original 11 lbs. I would need 2 months of boot camp to be helped. I cannot do this alone. When I wake up I want to eat. I love the shake, but my hunger takes over. I will sign off disappointed & defeated. But not dead.

Okay, so I have been having a mild breakdown. However, handling it well. But not writing every day. I took my shake & 3 burn capsules. Okay, I am supposed to take another 3. wow. could that be an issue. Let me work on that tomorrow.

I had brown rice w/ peas & veggies on top for dinner. good stuff.

However lunch may have been an issue. portabello mushroom & broccoli & cheese quesadilla. Oh yea, I could have ordered a salad while I was out. ouch

I am back. I went to work today & took my burn & shake.

I was away for a while.

Wow does time go by fast.

Will start blogging again tomorrow.

ciao

Thursday

my usually chocolate shake with blueberries. It really makes me feel good

took my penicillin & my burn. yum

then lean cuisine.

stopped after work & had new tires put on my car

had spaghetti squash with meat sauce. I love that stuff.

ok I have to take 6 burn a day. I cannot get it together.

ugh.

good thing is that I sleep much better. this way of eating is good.

No school tomorrow for nick or angela.

work for me. yuck. snow is on the way as we speak

UGH. Now I know why people have surgery. I was not on schedule this week. Gaining weight is unacceptable, but I did not exercise, but I did not eat a lot. except for 1/27. but ate nothing the next day. I am back on schedule.

It is 10:30 am no work

had chocolate shake

3 burn

edn

although it is technically Monday, this is for

Sunday 1/31/10

7am chocolate shake.

3 burn capsules.

keeps me going until noon lunch

ok why can't I remember to take the last 3 burn. I guess I should take before I leave work so not so hungry for dinner? could be.

noon

had my 280 calorie lean cuisine. butternut squash w/ veggies. love it.

did not snack today.

dinner was veggies. asparagus, string beans & potatoes

read all night, while Nick & his friends hung out , no school for them tomorrow because of snow.

What happened to Thursday & Friday.

oh yea

Thursday, slept entire day, had migraine.

Friday slept & had shake & burn.

omg

today Saturday. Have to go to work 6 inches of snow & more to come

am

made 3 eggs w/ 1 piece of toast.

I had to trek out in the snow, I am not sure why I skipped shake.

made it to within 3/4 mile of work, stuck in snow. My manager picked me up & off to work. car sits all day. can't get out. got ride home. Will call AAA tomorrow to tow to my job.

noon

lean cuisine

dinner

brown rice

turkey sausage chop meat

& beans. very good.

Tomorrow will start with shake in am. & burn. I am not focusing.